I don't Want to Be Different Today

I know what you're thinking; everyone is different. And yes this is true. But I feel it day to day with almost every interaction I have. I see things differently. Track time differently. Hear things differently. Create things differently. And do too many things to list.... differently. And its not that its necessarily bad, but still its different.

I would love to walk into a crowded space and be fine, understand that people are joking, embrace unexpected hugs, be on time, understand instructions, create things by following a pattern, and so much more. But I can't; at least not without assistance from others.

I may get overwhelmed by large crowds, but I will tune everything out to talk to just you. I take things seriously not understanding it's a joke, but I care deeply. Unexpected hugs put me off kilter, but if I respond ,you know that you are highly valued by me. I also take instructions a completely different way and wind up creating something that doesn't look like the picture on the box. But that's okay.

If I didn't come late and stay late who would talk with people regardless of time because they matter. If I saw situations and people the same, so many would have been left behind. If I heard things like everyone else, who would give a different perspective that other wise would be missing. And if my art was the same, even if beautiful, it would lack the soul and passion I put into my work.

It can seem to many and to myself that my being different is a curse. But only if I try to be someone I am not. If I allow people to convince me to put myself into a mold I will never fit, then yes it is a curse. It is beneficial to "fit in" but with assistance from others and not at my expense or the expense of others. It's not worth the cost of losing myself and who God created me to be. It is good. So maybe I'll be okay with being different tomorrow. So my encouragement for you today is if you're feeling so much pressure to conform to everyone around you, its okay to be a bit different.